Heart Break

I experienced my first heart break for my son today. It was his birthday - a special day for a kid - we started the day off with a gift from Nana and Pap and promises of more gifts and a dinner out.

As the bus door opened this afternoon the bus driver asked if it was Grant's birthday - I said Yes and he proceeds to tell me that No One wished my son a "Happy Birthday" at school. Grant turned and looked at me with tears in his eyes and said not one person wished me a "Happy Birthday" Mom! Marah yells from behind - I DID GRANT!

As we walked back to the house I started to feel awful - knowing I did not send in a "Birthday Treat" for the class. Thinking I am the worse mom around - why did I not send one in?! The school has changed the guidelines for parties and I was told that they were cutting them out this year, but I still should have emailed the teacher...... By the time we got home I was in tears on the phone with my husband - explaining the awful day our son had and how I felt that failed him as a mom.

Grant looked so sad and down - that I sent him to play his new Wii game without starting homework and promising that we would have the best time tonight celebrating his birthday.

I went off to email the teacher asking if I could send in a treat for his birthday since I did not do it today. Then I called the school to see if that was even allowed - they said oh yes Mrs. Reynolds we do allow "special treats" with the following rules. So after I got all my rules for the treat -I had a plan in mind. (which is still up in the air - since the teacher emailed back stating they were told no special treats)

After I had a good-long cry - we went out and had a very nice dinner. As we were putting him to bed he tells me - "I am still upset about no one remembered my birthday. He said - even after we did the birthday chart - TWO DAYS ago - they still forgot!"

I know there are going to be many more heart breaks for my son - but the first one is the hardest. To watch your son feel hurt and sad - hurts you even more as a mom.

Dear Grant, this world will let you down and mommy might even let you down at times - but God is always going to be with you and carry you through your days - especially the bad ones. Keep your eyes on Jesus and grow with Him. I love you Grant and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!